Yeah there's something I'm not saying
And it's keeping me awake
It's keeping my heart safe from ever being broken again
Yeah well maybe I'll just think it
And never let it out
I'll keep it like a prisoner locked away with all my doubt
Mary, am I cursed
Or is this a dream
And I was born to be a martyr
I was born to die alone
I was born to lose control
I can feel it in my bones
And I remember being younger
And I remember how it felt
I can still see you crying and I still blame myself
Mary, am I cursed
Or is this a dream
Sometimes at night I'm stronger
I'm rehearsing everything
I'll tell you that I love you and you belong here with me
It turns out I am the bravest
When I'm locked in my room
When I can't feel the danger of being rejected by you
Mary, am I cursed
Or is this a dream
Mary, I think I'm done
So come back to me