Four years since it happened
Four months since I admitted it to myself
I know I'm not what you imagined
I tried to warn you just as well as I could
I could be unlovable, I can't climb your pedestal
If I could, I'd have climbed this wall by now
But now you're here with me
You act so surprised to see I might need just a little help
You wanna save the people in the paper
Who are far enough away for you to sleep
You'd backpack your way south to the equator
Before you'd ever even think of saving me
I'd lie and say I'm happy
But that game's gone bored and old
I know sad songs ain't catchy
But it gets better, or so I'm told
If I pushed hard enough my heart would toughen up
And I could really be the one you want
But as it stands for now I just don't know how
To fill in the part that's gone
You wanna save the people in the paper
Your heroism scrawled across the screen
You're saving up your energy for later
For something so much more important than me
You want a muse, a mother, and savior
And I'm sorry if that's what you thought I'd be
Hope you find someone immune to life's cruel nature
'Cause you surely won't be finding her in me