She's gone away for good She's turned 48 and she blames her life on fate She brought herself down with rules she took for granted And went through the motions, caught up in the wheel of shame And John, he's a well respected man He bows down to the crowd then turns and bows down to the king He holds nothing sacred, he's nothing but a lukewarm man Like a blackhole he will swallow himself in the end I don't wanna have to lie I don't wanna force a smile To whom must I prove myself? On all those people I've turned my back Now it's time, time to change my plans Now I'm often lost in thoughts But I can read the signs living all around And all my friends, well they don't really know me now I keep on moving and I don't wanna settle down And Alex, I just met him the other day He gave me his guitar because he had to go away He's looking for something, but he can't remember what it was He's been to 49 states but it didn't get him down the road I don't wanna have to lie I don't wanna force a smile To whom must I prove myself? The past few weeks I've been feeling trapped Now I'm just starting to understand The only rule is change