It came down to the fact that inside of me
Pumps a heart that's no longer red
It carries the weight of all the promises I broke
Remember everything I said
All of the things that I tried to explain
Ended up on an empty wall
Letters staring cold as the words take shape
Into one big fuck you all
I never asked for hand outs
Never once did I fucking complain
I hate the pity you show when you look me in the eyes
Don't feel sorry for me ever again
Lights out
Let my mind shut down
Lights out
On everything I found
Lights out
Drain my blood by the drop
Lights out
On everything I got
It came down the the fact that all of this
Is just a self hate growing strong
It pulls me aside to frame the the life that I choose
Paints a picture where I don't belong
Friends turn into strangers when you're dying inside
The price is blood and I'm paying a lot
Lights out
Let my mind shut down
Lights out
On everything I found
Lights out
Drain my blood by the drop
Lights out
On everything I got
Lights out
Let me close my eyes
Lights out
On all the good in life
Lights out
On all the things we shared
Lights out
I don't fucking care
What is real
What is now
What if I was never here
Lights out
Lights out
It came down to the fact that all of you
Never once were the ones to blame
The hatred in my eyes came from nowhere but inside
And now I can't say my name
All of the things that I tried to ignore
Came around just to knock me down
Every problem that I've had is my own to carry
Until I'm six feet under ground
Lights out
Let me close my eyes
Lights out
On all the good in life
Lights out
On all the things we shared
Lights out
I don't even care
I don't even care