Sometimes it's not me; it's just a vague fear And a bleeding doubt that haunts me It takes me over, gets me all out of control That's when I give it all and still I face the wall of your defenses Sometimes I'm willing, to drift and wander In the shadow of this feeling Right out of balance, like a kite without a tail If it could only avail, when all attempts do fail to break the fences But all my hopes are trains On condemnation's rails Steaming through the pain I only seem to feign but never heal Tried so hard in vain Failed time and time again but now I feel This is the final call It won't be easy to start a new life Burying past times, burning bridges Against the icy winds of sorrow and dismay It won't be easy but this is the only way I have to deal with this Now all my hopes are trains On condemnation's rails Steaming through the pain I only seem to feign but never heal Tried so hard in vain Failed time and time again but now I feel This is the final call