Things have settled down, I'm feeling better now
I felt so stuck in my head there was no getting out
But I made it through, I always do
But in the moment I lose focus and I get confused
When all the pain emerges I'm looking fine on the surface
But underneath I am hurting and feeling so fucking worthless
I don't know how it happens
I just know that it's the way it always has been
But I'm doing fine for now, soaking up the light
In hopes to stave away the shadows that come for me at night
How long will it last? It's really hard to know
I just take what I can get and keep pushing along
Things have gotten better, but also gotten worse
I improve then I lose this shit must be a curse
But for the moment, everything's OK
The demons are at bay, and the sun's in my face
It could happen at any moment, for any reason
Triggered by anything and I don't know how to defeat it
I don't know how to fix it
I've tried so many things but they've only treated the symptoms
I'm feeling fine for now
But it's always right behind me, I can see it in the clouds
The sun still shines, but the light gets dim
There's no way to run for cover this is up in my head
It's really nothing new
Feeling like I live in London December of '52
I'm getting some help
But it's too early to determine it's improving my health
So I'm holding out hope
I think it's going to be beneficial we'll see how it goes
But for now, I'll just be happy with today
Cause at any moment the demons could break free from their cage