Study this as you study your first born My first song was pain personified in song The longest sequence is looped for days long Where bass kicks are fierce and snares are Known to drop a lot quicker than a child's tears And drown out the drama that I didn't want to share The load I wouldn't wish upon my enemies to bear The times I used to tell myself you didn't want to hear Until the reason in my rhyme become clear Now what I write makes the load a lot lighter The story of my life epitomizes imperfection As a musical where every scene seems to lack direction And I stand center stage stunned by what's happening Blinded by the lights, heroin's action Although I never asked for this lead role It seems that God decided it a long time ago I was chosen for this Given the gift to gain and maintain the crowd's cheers I break bread over beats with like-minded peers And share the story of my last trip into the atmosphere On the ninth cloud, I sat Indian style Arms outstretched inhaling God's breath I saw the stairway to heaven And counted one-hundred and forty-four thousand steps I wanted to climb but it wasn't my turn yet So I returned to earth just before the sun set And I could stare, waiting for this golden opportunity to share Now I share this with you I'll share this with you With all of you I'll share this with you I'll share this with Each and every One of you Now in my younger days that quickly passed I fell asleep in history class Not enchanted my past misery I'd rather chase down the present with a glass of Hennessy And tilted my flower-like childhood wilted when my innocence was secluded Plus the water we gave to it stayed polluted like the veins of cocaine users My blood stream's still a little murky from flash-backs of murder scenes Medical emergencies that fell upon deaf ears Over 8 million stories in a city that nobody wants to hear But as bad as it appears, I am happy that I'm here To share this with you To share this with you To share this with All of you To share this with you Share this with you Share this with Each and every one of you Heh, and share I will I'll share the nights where fist fights left somebody's body lying still The ice grills, the cold Ohio night's chill I'll even share the blood spill The memory of all my loved ones killed The unpaid bills The pain of the terminally ill My ill will towards my rivals My approach towards hip-hop survival The circumstance that made some suicidal The same circumstance that made others homicidal The signs of the vital The ways of the trial The dope fiends that walk around my block in denial The short life cycles The minds that lie idle My people that got out of court on a mistrial My hunger to become more grounded in the Bible Is smiled on behalf of my last day's arrival