I got your ornament
Thanks again I guess
Didn't forget
Just wasn't sure what to say
I miss you too and all
It's nothing personal
Can't keep tradition
From a distance anymore
I tried to forget about that night in Connecticut
When I laid on the ground and begged for an answer
I think I get it now
God damn, I was panicked
There couldn't be anyone else until there was you
Remember when we walked
Back home last Halloween
Thought we were fighting
Turns out we were just upset
Not with each other but
Mad at the circumstance
Not enough weekend to get back what we gave away
I still can't forget about that night on the Lower East
When I cried at the bar while you gave me your answer
I think I get it now
God damn, I was selfish
There can't be anyone else until there's no you
Try to find the common threads
Pull them out tie off the ends
Patch the holes as best I can
A little less of who I've been

But I won't forget about that night in Sennott Park
When you said you're in love with me and that's why it's over
I see it clearly now
God damn, I'm avoidant (some things never change)
I wish I'd been anyone else when I was with you
I can remember now how bizarre affection felt
When I couldn't normalize forgiving myself
The next time around (if I get one)
God damn, I'll do better (late than never)
I can't be anyone else, so why pretend to
Look back on the person I was as if anything's improved
Keep asking for help getting out when the only way is through
Maybe once nobody's left that'll solve the issue