Could have been a doctor if I really cared enough
But I didn't have it in me
I got distracted by a bunch of stuff
I'm so stupid and empty
My mind just wasn't in it
And neither was my heart
And the drive was a lie to myself from the god damned start
It's funny how for years I kept trying
Laughed at all the fears that I'd been hiding
Took me a while to see that it didn't matter that much to me
'Cause I think you're so cool
I didn't wanna go away to dental school
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
Except maybe you
I wanna give up
I wanna give up
I don't wanna try no more
I wanna stop all these pathetic attempts and saving this shipwreck
Swim right out the door
Before it sinks with a fraction of what's left of my dignity
I swept so many failed tests under carpets
Deep down I knew this is not what I wanted (not what I wanted)
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to
Except maybe you
And I still feel just about as dumb as I used to
I still feel just about as dumb as I used to
I still feel just about as dumb as I used to (as dumb as I used to)
I didn't wanna go, but the rejection still kind of hurt
Not as much as the one from you though
That one hurt way worse
That one hurt way worse
That one hurt way worse
I kept thinking things would get easier
I kept thinking I'd get better
I'm not basing my intelligence on some fucking letters
And now that it's over I did what I was told I had to do
But I still feel just about as dumb as I used to
I still feel just about as dumb as I used to
I don't care about anything as much as I used to