I've spent so long wanting to want To want to want something good All along I think I've wanted to want to want something I should And it's fine if we don't align Because I'm finally changing my childish mind I think I think, I'm starting to think that something good should be mine And I love being alive I say in the mirror three times In the morning, smile so wide Stretch out my tired body alright And I try to be gentle with my state, it's mental Try to change, I'm not static but damn, it feels like I'm well on my way Self aware, but unchanging Unblock your number, staying I don't want to want to want to want you anymore But there's something keeping me from closing that door I don't want to want you But i have to have you (I'll prove to myself that i can love someone else, someone else Prove to myself that i can think about something)