Trapped inside myself, I can't escape this fucking prison in my head.
I have become the one I loathe. I fill my empty shell with dread.
I make my nightmares come to life while all my daydreams fall apart.
Come one come all step back take in my self-destructive work of art.
Over and over and over again,
I'm stuck on a feeling I cannot defend.
Self-sabotage is my weapon of choice
In my fight against me and my thoughts and my voice
I rip at the stitches of everything good.
I pick at the pieces and fall as I should.
Malevolent shadows of what I could be-
Stand proud at the upcoming failing of me.
I no longer cry and I no longer know
What it's like to be free from this process I show
A world that depends on a half-hearted smile,
To revolve around everything short of denial.
Stuck inside myself, I can't deny this empty person I've become.
I'll know there's nothing left of me when I've left everything undone.
I make your nightmares come to life. I leave you wond'ring what went wrong.
And finally I blame myself. It's how I've done things all along.