I thought in the end I had found a home But it was all just an illusion I thought this was where I would not be alone Instead it plunged me deep into confusion I thought there was always something to condone But in the end I saw it would not work out I considered those gloomy times to be gone But now they were back, so beyond a doubt I can feel all the barriers torn down And all my thoughts, they feel so light and free All the baggage that died with my last frown To make way for a second reality I can feel so much that has gone away With that darkness no more a part of me All the things I thought forced me to stay Now forgotten with a past reality I can feel it die away without sound Like a fading image of a past me With no place in the freedom I have found Living in this second reality But I need to leave my place below deck So long have I felt it is long past twelve When I need to turn and never look back To go where I can just be myself I know somewhere I skidded off the track But I just could not see clearly back then I need to leave behind all that slack And find out once more who I really am