Some days I throw my hands up and see a miracle Light-years in the making But most days I look down at them and say worthless Some days I feel like I have to count my blessings through a telescope But most days I count them like sheep Like I'm just trying to fall asleep And then when I wake Each one of my sheets weighs in at At least 50 pounds a piece And I'm trapped underneath While my insecurities turn to termites and gnaw at the edges of my dreams But that is not me I want to live so badly I'm willing to die doing it But I will not be my undoing Because this was not my choice And I've heard it said The sun will rise And we will try again I guess this is me trying to be someone I guess this is me trying to believe in something I don't know what it is but I know that it's big Half of the time it's like I'm a stone clenched in its fist The other half feels like I've got the reins slung around my wrist Now, either way I'll see my reflection in that giant's smile His burning iris Look My life is a den of circling lions I'm just trying not to get swallowed by the pride But most days I can't get a grip on my vices That's why I'm walking around Biting the idea of a bullet waking up the silence Inside, I'm shaking at the thought but Outside I'm making sure I look solid Like this isn't all just love and we're not all just falling into it God Why do I give a shit Why not What am I accomplishing What do you want To be the greatest To write my fate and let it be taken by something greater If not now then later As if later isn't now and now isn't greater Than lions and tigers and haters Fakers and game players Love makers and broken prayers Now I see that they're all the same as me And I'm no different than I once was And I'm no different than I will be Because this has always been And this is me Because one day As the sun falls So will we Yeah, some days I feel like a realist Some days I feel psychotic, ecstatic Lucky as footless rabbit Some days I'm running in circles from lions running so much faster Some days I feel like a forest fire getting fucked by a flood Yeah, some days I'm a flood Some days I feel on top of the bottom of the world Some days I feel like I should And I know That I am no different than I once was And I once was loved And I once was breath I once was blood And I know That I am no different than I will be And I will be great And so will we And I will be alive And so will we as that sun dies So will we And as it rises So will we Because this has always been And this is you And this is me Because this has always been And this is real And so are we