When it looks bad all the time, all the better Had a lapse in thought so I grabbed a ladder Crossed a rung and then I slip and take a fall It's fine, I'll do it all again I took a step back, I never noticed it's Kaleidoscopic with the shifting focuses Seems like a long ride running stop signs Into dead ends And I don't know if I would do that again It starts to get old It starts to get old I start to get it It starts to get old It starts to get old I start to get it Pass a lot of time not really doing anything Could do more but it's not where I've been lately That's alright, that's fine, I've got a ways to go now I know just how to do it, I've played this game many times before And I'm lucky just to try I don't want to stay, god I'm so fucking sick of this and I want to leave but I'm starting to feel a reaction Pick a frame of mind just to help yourself get through it Just like the last time I tried to be an optimist And I don't know if I would do that again It starts to get old It starts to get old I start to get it It starts to get old It starts to get old I start to get it You know I'm out here making sense of life And I feel that fear like a cockroach creeping up The architecture based on sticks and mud And it's by design My mind feels like a dam as it's breaking My mind is racing every day from thought to thought I'm so transfixed on who I am and who I'm not I'm rushing forward all the time, it's by design My mind feels like a dam as it's breaking I often feel as if I made a mistake Which makes me wonder if I'm gonna give when I break But I shrug my shoulders, it's just the way it's gotta be Like a little lightbulb snap back in the way where I won't See it again, nooo Like a little lightbulb Like a little lighbulb And that's the last time I try to be an optimist