Our minds had slowly wandered
So we took off all our clothes
My bated breath failed to remind
My confidence to stay composed
And so now I've been losing sleep
And etching days into my door
Obsessing over nonsense
To forget that I want more
She felt the sorrow In my discontent
I wrote the message, but never hit send
Forming an ocean was not my intent
I'm getting better
But it never really mattered in the first place
I'm no longer caught up in a world
Where I lose my mind
When I hear your first name
It only made me sick
Wide awake and wondering again
Disenfranchising your sins
Hung up on the thought
That this might be
As good as it gets
The hole that I dug
Seemed to quickly fill up
Constant weight
I felt stuck
Always disembodied
I saw in her face
She felt home
She felt safe
Seeking peace in a past
I was compromising
I felt my smile slowly fade to a blister
I tried to scream but it came out as a whisper
The root of it all
I'm getting better
But it never really mattered in the first place
I'm no longer caught up in a world
Where I lose my mind
When I hear your first name
It only made me sick
Wide awake and wondering again
Disenfranchising your sins
Hung up on the thought
That this might be
As good as it gets
As good as it gets

Depressed and inside our heads
Sleeping in separate beds
Just like our parents did
Because we're our parents kids
The half of blood state of mind
Growing up left behind
Half a man, undefined
Lie awake every night
The kind of person I don't strive to be
I tried to shake it, but it married me
It's a constant reminder
Nothing in life comes free
Breaking is masochistic mending
Self inflicted healing
Seeking the root of it all
I'm getting better
But it never really mattered in the first place
I'm no longer caught up in a world
Where I lose my mind
When I hear your first name
It only made me sick
Wide awake and wondering again
Disenfranchising your sins
Hung up on the thought
That this might be
As good as it gets
♪
As we looked up at the sky
I told her every star she saw
Was a plane with its engine burning out
I'm just a plane with its engine burning out