I always feel like I'm a let down
Cause being selfless, it's hard work
And I've never been one to listen
So we never have this conversation
And lately I've been feeling down
(I'm feeling down)
Cause nothing turns out right
I hate the way I think about myself sometimes
Overwhelmed and insecure
No matter how I've tried
I can't catch the break
I've needed all this time
I can't do this again
Constantly fearing
What I should just ignore
But I'm trying everything
To make myself better
Even though I know that it's not right
I can't help but just repeat
These cycles of ambition
That leaves me in defeat
Cause time's always against me
Who knows if I'll win
All I know that it's not healthy
Thinking I'm never enough for
Never was for you
It seems that I will let you down
My conscience has a way
Of pushing all my logic out
I can't regress to how it was back then
No matter how I feel things caving in
I won't do this again
Can't help but feeling
Much more guilt than before
I'm trying everything now
To make myself better
I know I'm guarded
I've heard that all before
Been trying everything now
To make myself better
Even though I know that it's not right
I can't help but just repeat
These cycles of ambition
That leaves me in defeat
Cause time's always against me
Who knows if I'll win
All I know is it's not healthy
Thinking I'm never enough for
Never was for you
I know I'm better than this
I will be better than this
Better than this
(You'll see that I"m so much more)
So much better than this
(Don't know who I was before)
It's kind of like staring at pictures together
All the time never thought that I'd get better
Constantly fearing what I should just ignore
But I'm trying everything to make myself better