If I could go outside again & I could be like any other girl I'd dress in a face mask & Walk on the beach till my feet hurt If I were twelve years old again & I had all the money in the world I'd buy me a pool pass & Drown myself in a t shirt Oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh Needed for the world not to turn no more Tried it but the bridge won't burn Oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh Needed for the world not to turn no more Tried it but the bridge won't burn I prayed (pray) Seems as if god & the devil have been fighting over me I let whoever take over the motions supposedly I don't remember a lot of the way that it felt before But I know that it must be better cuz I Cry So Much more But at least it feels more like healing Than It Did Before But I still can't shake this feeling that If I could go outside again & I could be like any other girl I'd dress in a face mask & Walk on the beach till my feet hurt If I were twelve years old again & I had all the money in the world I'd buy me a pool pass & Drown myself in a t shirt Oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh Needed for the world to not to turn no more Tried it but the bridge won't burn Oh-oh-oh Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh Needed for the world not to turn no more Tried it but the bridge won't burn As long as I just keep my breathing steady & As long as I just keep moving my legs Things'll just... eventually be fine I kept wanting to find dangerous things to climb on or walk on or Do whatever on, because it was like It was a kind of danger that I could feel for myself Without it being a danger that was produced by other humans Just seeing human bodies be extremely resilient Or human bodies just having all these impulses in the things that they do To keep themselves safe There's just so many little things at play It's just taking care of everything in the background