Convinced myself of everything I wanted I told myself it would be easy to change I thought it Wouldn't take much more than discipline I think I got it But now the walls are closing in And I can't seem to stop them Where has the inspiration gone And have I tried to follow I think it creeped out in the cold While I was hitting bottles Used up adrenaline And melancholy lovers taught me That when the scenery decays It's time to fucking leave It's time to wake up from this hell That is constantly spreading beneath these thirsty veins The darkness never gives Not like it ever did While I've been searching for meaning You haven't gave a shit So don't think that I give a damn When you talk about All of the things I could've been You don't live in my skin You never fucking did Your sympathy is lost So how low can I sink myself into this Cycle of degeneration Am I kidding myself I don't think you could ever help me through it But thanks for all the empty words That I've already heard I carry all my failures around I know that they are weighing me down I wish that I could face everything Instead of always looking for a way out Don't wanna think about the mess I'm in Don't wanna talk about How I've been Nothing matters Cause we all lose in the end Waste my time Not much to say about a wasted life I'm having trouble trying to sleep at night The shadows in my room They talk just like you I'm sick of staring at the walls Sick of waiting While my dreams are lying dead outside the door Opportunity is bleeding all over the floor And I can't get out of bed Fucked up I knew I'd end up here again Treading water with these ropes around my limbs I'm jumping out my skin This never fucking ends You don't have to tell me I know I'm lost And you don't have to tell me I know that I'm making this hard Maybe with distance between us We both will be better off I've walked for hours And still don't know when I am going to bed There's not enough space between Streetlights to clear out my head I can't take back anything I said I meant Every word of it We won't end up like this again End this One more time Don't wanna think about The mess I'm in Don't wanna talk about How I've been Nothing matters Cause we all lose in the end Waste my time Not much to say about a wasted life I'm having trouble Trying to sleep at night The shadows in my room They talk just like you