I did my best Looks like I did my best To swallow the pain I thought I'd never sleep again Just numb me to the point that I feel lifeless I feel lifeless Drag me into the pits Of my subconscious where I try to hide The demons eating away my insides A patient man Stumbles into the abyss Smothered by the silence Never to be seen again Hell lives in me Death envy Empty carcass Worthless shit Death envy Too many times I've Succumbed to my vicious pride I've fucking scraped the bottom Just a thorn in the side I'm digging deeper than I Would ever care to admit Tell me you're over it So throw me in the river Tie my hands behind my back I'll never be better Been digging at the bottom forever I can't turn back Soak me in the warmth of shame There is no release I am indebted to it's flame The search for cheap salvation Has brought me nothing Slave to my guilt I feel it weigh me down Slave to my guilt I feel it weigh me down I want to feel it crush into my chest Weigh me down Follow the chain That leads me into hell Abandon all my pride I'm done Just fucking pull the trigger I know I've wasted all my time Trapped in this destructive mind So throw me in the river Tie my hands behind my back I'll never be better Been digging at the bottom forever I can't turn back HELL LIVES IN ME DEATH ENVY EMPTY CARCASS WORTHLESS SHIT DEAVY ENVY