Here it comes, I'm freaked my mental's in
A state of extreme adrenaline, case of the needles, pins again
And my feet are twitching it's like there's creepers in my skin
Or my knees can't bend and then I leave the dinner in
Sweat, since up next there's fifteen odd minutes when
There's a sensation in my face and cheeks resembling
Something you get when a raging fever temp is in
So cold in the sheets you're trembling
But need to get composed since you be remembering
You were supposed to go and meet the friends at 10
Seeking imminent relief from sentiments
The self loathe, the beast is tempting him
To go and just dose acetaminophen
But then again you've known the Sleeman's been a friend
Demons, menaces all steeped all in, it's grim
Place me back in a luminous time
Before I engaged in actions that ruined this mind, was fine
Take me back to a luminous time
Before I engaged in actions that ruined this mind
Take me back to a luminous time
Been learning to cope but it's the hardest
Trying to determine what stoked it when it started
Maybe it was '08 at grandma's old place
It was late, lied awake, falling asleep at a slow pace
When my heart quickly raced and then my bones ached
Was bizarre symptoms, traits that I would showcase
Can't still articulate, felt like a stroke state
Sat there stone faced, afraid, it triggered shakes
That I now anticipate to this date but shit, wait
One thought of regrets gets me neurotic, depressed
I confess these pests infest the chest and box me in eps
They've kept reoccurring, got no answers for why
They're just returning like it's something random inside
And it's for certain that it's been too manic to hide
To be firm and making a last stand, that I try, yeah
I choose this not for coupes, cribs in a Bel-Air
Not just music since I do this for the self-care
Not just music since I do this for the self-care
The self-care, do this for the self-care