When you're clean you act like me And that's scary It's overdue, happy for you But i'm wary When you were high I almost died Then you ran out But I think I could forgive you somehow And lately I think about Pennsylvania The woods and farms and cornfields on the drive And how kids have stupid dreams when they're just Watching cars go by hoping inside There's someone who wants you Think I've never heard you crack a joke Wonder if you regret me the most If I was wrong in what I did or what I've said Sorry but think we both tried our best Back then I thought we go to Pennsylvania And leave Long Island somewhere far behind I thought if maybe you heard me Singing along to landslide It'd change your mind My friend gabe called to tell you I'm a mess You seemed concerned But I don't know what you'd expect Thought it could change You went away again that's that In the end, at least my friends have my back Sometimes now I go to Pennsylvania Cause I've got friends who'd drive out of the way To pick me up, just to fuck around so we get high I wanna stay hmm To live there for real someday