I am holding onto you for the last time
Capsized, sinking, feeling like I made mistakes I must live by
Hoping that I'll find somebody new
Just to ease the time and see me through
And memories I'm just trying to let em pass by
Cause I am holding onto you for the last time
Get away from my window
I got nothing for you in store
My life is in limbo
Then it hit me like a rib broke
It's simple
Every single woman wanna shape me like a stencil
Now I mingle no rain when you're single
You can find me out living where the wind blows
Withholding all the pain so I get low
Splitz like a skitzo
That's why I spit flows
And everybody wanna pop like crypto
Social dystopia. Big bro
Roaring twenties but it feels like eighty four
Wanna change course but oh well it's what we paid for
Pop some love like a drug then I swallow it
Build relationships up then demolish em
Healthy love round here it's the opposite
Role models never really taught me much confidence
So where you gonna go and frolic when the music stops?
When it all plays out like a murder plot?
When the young guns come up and they take your spot?
Last shot all fade away and you ain't the boss
Taking damage like companionship is warfare
Hold the line till somebody have the right stare
And I'm aware that I gotta find the right flare
Till then I'm sorry and I gotta hang it right here
Cause
I am holding onto you for the last time
Capsized, sinking, feeling like I made mistakes I must live by
Hoping that I'll find somebody new
Just to ease the time and see me through
And memories I'm just trying to let em pass by
Cause I am holding onto you for the last time
Another one night stand by my night stand
This is fun but it couldn't last a life span
But is it really that fun Rush really
In your thirties gotta get more serious
And I'm curious why you stay so distant
Still living with the same addictions
And adrenaline is so persistent
But that medicine won't cure your sickness
Big vision gotta get it on a mission
I'm committed on my ninth inning
Hit it till I'm winning
Watch me stick it like a gymnast
Bout to witness my commitment
Setting records like I'm Guinness
I'm impressive with the fitness
Intuition fell down like a cold rain
I think I'm sinking down deep in my old ways
Say I love yah but the word's don't hold weight
She's been moving closer
I need more space
Am I just way too stuck up in my flow state
But I can tell there's been a change is it old age
How many fake lame Jane's I gotta take out on a date
To find a soul mate that'll take it to the grave hey
Someday this all might change
Life is just light and shade
I have been writing trying to find a way I can explain
Bottom like is I know that it hurts
You could probably do better
I could probably do worse
But first things first gotta work on yourself
Don't contradict yourself like you're drinking to health hell
But it all went up in flames
And it cost me all my faith
And that forecast called for pain
Soon as we went our separate ways
Cause I am holding onto you for the last time
Capsized, sinking, feeling like I made mistakes I must live by
Hoping that I'll find somebody new
Just to ease the time and see me through
And memories I'm just trying to let em pass by
Cause I am holding onto you for the last time
For the last time
For the last time
I am holding onto you for the last time
For the last time
For the last time
I am holding onto you for the last time
For the last time
For the last time
I am holding onto you for the last time
For the last time
For the last time
I am holding onto you for the last time
The trouble with you is, you don't seem to understand what love is really about
I've never seen anything like it
You don't have to get sore about it, do yah
Well I'm sorry, but look at it this way
You just haven't been around enough to know what love really is