I've been praying for far too long To see both of my father's dissolve Ones real and the others an impostor But both seem as absent as the other One is the man I wanted to become The other is composed of living scum They both have their ways to torment me While I search for my false sense of sanity So now I ingest this insecticide To try to eradicate all of these butterflies That keep struggling to arise Straight out the fucking depths of my insides It's time for me to break this oppressive mould To finally say this shit that I've never told To blame all your mistakes on a 14 year old Was it me who put that coke up your nose How does a man find himself if he never had a mentor Cast your self to the side, for a life of drugs and whores You lost me Lost a son