I've stayed awake
Through the night
Until mourning comes
Is there a shadow watching me
Sitting in wait for me to sleep?
There's sickness in my head
And sickness in my heart
I know what must be said
But I don't know where to start
The voice that plagues my mind is not the only one
'Cause I still hear you calling out
For me to wait
Always the same
Am I the only one who's desperate for a way out?
From the lie that's true in time
From the night that comes alive
From the feeling that there's no more to
Say, it's my life to pay, cast me astray
I've stayed awake
Through the night
Until mourning comes
This life is smothering me
The fire that's inside me wanes and withers
The impulses that guide me beg for a way out
The drive that once defined me shakes and shivers
This lie is all that's left to light this dark surround
There was fire in your eyes
A sense of hope and boundless wonder
And though you were afraid at night
You knew the mourning sun
Would bring you home again
I'd give anything to make amends
I'd trade you for this life
I'd give anything to feel afraid
But instead I'm passing time
Knowing one day I'll be free again
Knowing one day I'll mean more than this
Knowing I've done all I could have done
I'd turn back time
To keep you alive
Your absence still weighs on my mind
I'd turn back time
To keep you alive
This life was not meant for me