That's why i'm faking a smile That's why i'm saying i'm fine I can't focus, on being just myself A constant lie each day Looking stiff but i sway You can't read, there's nothing i can say Burying all sadness down inside The emotions that I can't help but hide Can't help but vomit The feeling This plague The grey matter Anxiety And hopelessness I lost my way In this storm of stress Hiding behind the mask of positiveness Stomping my way in a pursuit of happiness Each feeling is and open scar Afraid of my shadow in an open war Burning inside Veiled in my pride Drown in the tide God knows I tried