I lingered through the night
Pacing unfamiliar streets
Counting every mistake I've made
Neglecting those I love and destroying all I've worked for
I replay every act of desperation
I re-enact every chemical inhalation
As my lungs collapse my life flashes before me
I thought the shapes would fall into place
I was wrong
Solely to blame
I should have rewrote everything
All I have left is a guilty hatred
Aimed at all who surround me
This defeated demeanor
Stemmed from my hauntings
Brought a cruel insight to my isolation
Questions dwell on my conscience
Has my seclusion run its course?
Or will I die under the mountain?
Was it for sympathy?
Or a test of my indifference?
Sullen face and somber eyes
Cold hands and unforgivable lies
Can I ever change?