Knock, knock in vain
I just want to pretend
That I can't hear you
Knock, knock in vain
At some point you'll have to go away
With my eyes closed
To fake that I'm asleep
Is way too easy
I'll be more safe
If I don't see what's behind the door
This self-induced sleep paralysis
Keeps me locked up in here
As when back in the day I was home sick
It feels kinda warm
If I ever decide to kill myself please take me somewhere peaceful
I'd like to have some rest
Sit with me on the peak of a mountain
And sing me a lullaby
A lullaby
Who would have thought?
Just lying on the bed
Can be exhausting
But there's no one left
Here to spur me on to get a life
They didn't need me when I was there
I guess they won't start now
Perhaps it's better for us that I've vanished
Best of luck to you
If I ever decide to kill myself please take me somewhere peaceful
I'd like to have some rest
Sit with me on the peak of a mountain
And sing me a lullaby
A lullaby
How did I become like this?
Avoiding all the calls?
Hoping not to meet anyone
On the elevator?
Revolving thoughts emerge
From the swamp of entertainment where I tried to drown them
Locking windows, smoothing the edges
It didn't help, it didn't help, it didn't help
To keep you from knocking
You would like me to take a step
You'd like me to fly away
So get out of my head and break down the door
I don't wanna cross, I don't wanna cross
Yes, I know out there I could feel the sun on my skin
And run through the fields
Steal some fruit and get caught, paint, blow some bubbles
And swim in the sea
Be the smile and the tears of the people that I meet
In short truly live
But you know I have already chosen
I gave up to fear
I'll stand still
Knock, knock in vain