Every unopened voice box is a closed casket with a flag on top The heavens are so full of smoke I can hear the stars playing taps whenever I'm flying home What if the weather keeps changing and we don't? I want to touch the sleeve of the river I want to un-dam my bloodstream I want to make good time I don't know what makes us human more than our crimes And that at just breaks my heart The last time I wanted to kill myself My lover said she thought I picked up the knife to kill her instead I don't wanna write that down But I don't wanna keep it in my head There have been whole years when I have been nothing but mean I want to leave behind my shame Cut all my words from a shiny magazine Sleep like a baby so someone will hear me when I cry Be nothing but honest and say nothing But it hurts, it hurts My bear knuckle heart has hit the road And left every single love I have know So what do all these poems mean? The war goes on y'all I write it down and its just as tall The was goes on and i am small as a kid being pushed inside a locker Good god, I want to be big Big enough to stop editing the ugly out of my bio To empty every bullet from the chamber of my heart To fill it with the hoodie of a boy What poem will walk him home? What radio tower of light? What redemption will dull the blade Melt it down to mirror Give us back to God? Unhaunt the house of the mother choosing the color of the casket Rinse out the mouth of anyone who would still call it a white flag Tonight, don't tell me you don't understand the kids Wo cut themselves to save their lives Who can't bare to not be bleeding When everything else is