Bottomed out on the first day Of the second week of this year In the kitchen in my house with my mom And it ended with tears And I'm not proud of the person that I am anymore And I don't believe in anything quite like I did before And the universe doesn't know the reasons why I Stay paralyzed Like I don't understand the reasons for the things That happen inside my mind And I've been getting worse and now I know that I'll Disintegrate with time I'm skipping church 'cause they shouldn't have to bear this Heavy burden of mine So, can I disappear yet? Can I disappear yet? Could I just play dead? What drug could I take to forget? Can I disappear yet? Can I disappear yet? Could I just play dead? What drug could I take to forget? To forget To forget To forget To forget To forget To forget I want to forget I want to forget All of it