Threw all my clothes away
Heard they were out of style
Bought brands I can't pronounce
So maybe you'll like me
Played the life of the party
Forcing down whiskey with
People I don't want to know
I faked liking things so
I'd never feel lonely
Threw away friends
Who actually knew me
Thought it was better
To live a lie
Hated myself then and
I don't know why
I
Was trying to be like the strangers I know
Fuck your fantasy that's painted in gold
Might be together but you're always alone
Won't let no one see
All the secrets you keep
I used to be like all the strangers I know
Perfectly filtered when I looked at my phone
Don't recognize what's even real anymore
Won't let no one see
Someone I'll never be
Changing my body
So all the wrong people could love me
Was always conditional
And I kept on feeling like
Even if I matched all their expectations
It wouldn't matter at all
So I
Gave up on thinking that people are perfect
Shouldn't of taken me this long to learn it
Thought it was better
To live a lie
Hated myself then and
I don't know why
I
Was trying to be like the strangers I know
Fuck your fantasy that's painted in gold
Might be together but you're always alone
Won't let no one see
All the secrets you keep
I used to be like all the strangers I know
Perfectly filtered when I looked at my phone
Don't recognize what's even real anymore
Won't let no one see
Someone I'll never be
(Not changing my body so everyone loves me)
Won't let no one see someone I'll never be
(I'm leaving the party so no one can hurt me)
Won't let no one see someone I'll never be