I spent the whole night cutting white smiles out of good housekeeping Cuz a magazine doesn't need smiles while it's takin moms savings At least that what I told myself Really, I'm just wide awake and bored as hell But I keep 'em on a shelf Just so I can smile at will At least when you're around I wish I could see you now I want to break through the noise Wish you would choose a voice Cuz it breaks my heart tryna bring you joy I spent the good part of the evening Peeling my eyes from off the ceiling Tryna hold on to better days When I know they're fading Im diving in the hamper past the damp towels Just to get a sweatshirt out Cuz I'm too damn stubborn Just to say what I wanted, but I'll spell it out Now you're not around I wish I could see you now I want to break through the noise Wish you would choose a voice Cuz it breaks my heart tryna bring you joy I spent the good part of the evening Waiting for you Waiting for you Yeah I'm waiting for you Cuz it breaks my heart to get in the way My part is so hard to play I just wanna bring you joy