Early two thousands, welcomed me with opened arms
Six siblings still introduced me to your mums
Was never spoken but my word to you was bond
The grass was greener for us both 'cause we shared lawns
My super hero and I didn't have a brother then
It was just you and I, no need for any other friends
Mum bought me toys then we would sell them to the other kids
To get some change to stunt with sherbet and some cherry fizz
Yeah
Taught me the beautiful game and all it's tricks
Taught me that money is power, but for a bit
We had our first fight, and no lie it really tore me
So I had to swallow pride and never choke on my spit
We rolled papers and tea bags
Never cared for a feedback
Baggy clothes while we lean back
Playing all day with tin cans
I can only reminisce and put words when the beats back
Then we grew up
You got hooked on two cups
I was still a youngin' so I saw you a screw up
I moved to the 'burbs, acted boujie like I'm too up
You sat and observed, with the accent getting newer
If I could change it I would
But at the time you were a man I was becoming a young lady and look
Our views drifted as should
I saw your hustle
Flexed muscle
But still wanted more for us, than What we took from the hood
I get you're misunderstood
But I was scared
You'd judge my sexuality cause everyone around me was shook
Still doing things by the book with your words
Always on my mind, I hope it's clear By the verse
And other unspoken words
I heard about your dads passing and still didn't reach out
Demons haunting my demeanor
Saw you at Spar, and didn't speak up
First time I saw a gun was his
I guess The news had me triggered
I wasn't there for you, can't reminisce when my absence still lingers
Yeah
I wasn't there for you, can't reminisce when my absence still lingers