Called my best friend and said "I'm sorry that I've been distant I've been lost inside my head I've been sleeping in the basement again I know you've been worried sick these days" Called you up and said "I'm sorry we haven't talked much I've been lost inside your head I've been using you as a crutch I guess I'm sorry for the things I did" I'm getting lost in what was fading all along in the first place So what's the cost of all this pointless pain I'm a part of? I'm wasting Called my sister and said Well man fuck it, I said nothing 'Cause I'm just too scared of conflict I don't wanna have the discussion That makes me realize I'm the one who's flawed Looked in the mirror and said "Maybe I should be easier on myself" I'm getting lost in what was fading all along in the first place So what's the cost of all this pointless pain I'm a part of? I'm wasting Small talk, I'm always discouraged I'm the one with all of the courage Put my heart and life on the line I swear I do this every god damn time Small talk, I'm always discouraged I'm the one with all of the courage Put my heart and life on the line I swear I do this every god damn time Small talk, I'm always discouraged I'm the one with all of the courage Put my heart and life on the line I swear I do this every god damn time