As I sit in this clinic, I'm thinking bout my life
Know it's hard to admit it but I been living trife
Just got burned by this chick that I had to give the pipe
Ironically it hurts when I piss, plumbing isn't right
In seven days I'll be better, just gotta take this pill
Ain't wanna be in this room, I'm tryna shake the feel
Teenage girls clutching wombs, I bet the pain is real
I'd really hate to be in their shoes, it gives me chills
I know I gotta do better, I'm way too focused on pleasure
Whatever I always choose, it leads to pain
Stay acting like your boy got forever to finish all these endeavors
Lately I'm tethered to sin, I'm tryna change
Say I love you, but I love everything that you hate
I constantly break your heart and brush it off as mistakes
Choose my ways over yours, throw it right in your face
I'm more concerned with myself than your love and your grace
Lord, why I always choose my flesh
Look up, it could be worse, you
Messed up and I know you're hurt
You're looking round for answers and you're unsure
But your struggles don't define your worth
Get up and try to do better
Try to do better
Try and do better
It's another fresh start today
I know that I'm flawed
I don't understand what I do, what I wanna do I don't do
Eat vomit like dog
It make no sense to love what make me sick, but yo I can't seem quit
Or get control of me
Even for soul of me, damnit this got a hold of me, heavy load that I'm shouldering
Burden bigger than boulders be, this can't be life
And even though it feels good I know this can't be right
I been running up the debt as if I can't see price
I know I'm mistaken, my values are vacant
I mean I look at the nation repeating cycles that all lead to abuse
I been looking in the mirror tryna clean up the view
Taking time for self reflection, I don't need an excuse
Can't have my character in question imma lean into truth
Yo its life over death I guess it's easy to choose
More denying of the flesh is what I'm needing to do to do better
Look up, it could be worse, you
Messed up and I know you're hurt
You're looking round for answers and you're unsure
But your struggles don't define your worth
Get up and try to do better
Try to do better
Try and do better
It's another fresh start today
What up, Hundo?
What's good brotha?
Chilling brotha, in the bed
Man, I need you, um, I need some counsel
Okay
When I say the words "but the flesh is weak," what do you think of
But the flesh is weak
That, oh it's funny, when I used to hear that term
I used to automatically think of lusting After women
Cause that's usually what I would hear, especially in the church
Like, ooh, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak
Cause that's what dudes would say when they see a fine chick or something
Maybe I can lust after her or something
But now, theologically speaking
What I say is that, because the spirit is willing, meaning
God's spirit is within you, trying to guide and lead you
But you want to yield to your flesh for some reason
Why, what are you trying to say