I know I met you at the wrong time But I can't schedule my feelings, and I'm no good at dealing with my own mind And its unconscious decisions that lead to our collision, but it's alright, That's how I lie to myself, cause when I begin to wonder, I end up going under In a spellbind, so I try to remind myself to come back down I don't know if I'm ready to show the real me, most people find it overwhelming Try my best to keep my heart at arms length, but I always seem to find it hanging out of my sleeve So I sit, hoping that you'll commit, but past relapse suggests that it's all unlikely And like before, I just can't ignore the fire burning me inside Fall for you early Watch you run out on me I can't hide my worries You notice everything I don't know if I'll ever fall in love at the right time So I chose to stay caught up in a white lie I don't know that you ever really wanted to be mine Put on hold, like a letter that you won't write So let it go, losing hope, I tumble out of the sunlight All alone, as I wander through the cold night