Downplay, learn to take a hit Get a grip, it only hurts a little bit Let my innocence decay, tell me I'll be okay New prescription, temples throbbing Not my fault, still say I'm sorry Holding hands with my misery Head between my knees as I question my sanity Softly crave to be If I close my eyes I can pretend it isn't real Pushing pins through my fingertips is second rate Another friend chose their own expiration date I need a stimulant I'm stuck on repeat It's a hard pill to swallow but it's slow release I hope you're happy I hope that you'll be proud of me Kind of twisted I care after what you did to me Scared of being touched cause I still see your face And now I'm sitting in corners tracing my veins with razor blades The truth hurts And it gives me chills Turn the flash off I'm trying to hide this broken brain on the inside I'll just trim my nails with my teeth Mix amphetamines with caffeine When I seize to breathe will there be a sequel Pushing pins through my fingertips is second rate Another friend chose their own expiration date I need a stimulant I'm stuck on repeat It's a hard pill to swallow but it's slow release I hope you're happy I hope that you'll be proud of me Kind of twisted I care after what you did to me Scared of being touched cause I still see your face And now I'm sitting in corners tracing my veins with razor blades It might feel good to finish something Be in control But I'll stay Cause you'll be gone someday And my soul will be freed from the shackles you put it in Look me in the eyes, pretend you don't remember I spent my whole life trying to forget Put a smile on my face The day your heart stops will be my great escape Softly crave to be If I close my eyes