Things I've wanted to tell you A fear so close to home Every time the words leave my lips Feelings come and go Everything is nothing and it's driving me insane Creeping out that window baby I just cannot stay Every time you look away my face Seems calm but I'm barely breathing Counting down to bury you at sea You're lying there My eyes are closed but I am not sleeping Biting down and trying not to scream The past seems far away but I'm holding on for no good reason Festering and trying not to leave Fear and paranoia and making those mistakes Trying hard to free my love but for you it's not the same Never wanted to fail you but it seems I've failed myself Cannot teach this old dog new tricks I'm just not that way It's not forever No it's not for good These lovers of blood Misunderstood