"Good and evil are so close as to be chained together in the soul." If he be Mr. Hyde I shall be Mr. Seek But I seek only the good in the monster but those things linger deep For too long I've kept the ego in a cage But the damage my doubts did was basically the same Confounded questioning my flaws- with doubting my virtues Pushed away people that loved me and said: I'm scared I'll hurt you Shook hands with lotta folks I'd rather wage war on Contradictory idiot, oxymoron Stopped living life- and let it live me Exposed my heavy doubts proudly thought they'd lift me Huh - shit, they didn't I was cooking the right meal but in the wrong kitchen When all you got for spice is insecurity and fear Don't be surprised when your clientele is all bitching Sometimes the right decision is to be mistaken Sometimes a trumpet sounds better muted Sometimes memories that maim you make more sense at a later viewing Learned that I can't hate myself for shit I don't do Can't be who you wanna be letting your fears taunt you Feared that all my pride would falter if I let the fear grow Tears show feared that my ego'd outgrow me So I was scared to let the fear go Me telling myself that I'm the goat to alleviate my stressing Is my go to method to express that all I go through Is part of my goal to uncover the whole truth In hope to keep my people from saying I'm only fucking with the old you Wish I could look at myself yesterday and say that I've changed a lot Hard to navigate this new sense of liberty when I relied on chains a lot But I refuse to lose and have that be the main force behind my will to continue Learned you have to master both the doubts and the ego That you wielding within you Two faces of the same coin wonder what that thing can buy me Hard to estimate my worth it's blurry when I think about me Give it all to the music but will there be change left Walk the long run but will there be range left Transplant my pride man had a change of heart Stomached my fears got the guts to let them part Need no more potion to alter my ego Being me doesn't always mean confidence, but I'm confident in being me tho With every day, and from both sides of my intelligence, the moral and the intellectual I drew steadily nearer to the truth By whose partial discovery I have been doomed to such a dreadful shipwreck That man is not truly one, but truly two