I could write a thousand songs about January I don't wanna be dead I think the permanence scares me And they say that I'm young "This is just the beginning" Tell me why in the hell Do I still feel so empty Dead trees around me And the snow falls down I'll wait for something To bring me out Of this mess that I got myself into I swear I'm okay It's just dark in the winter I could write a thousand songs about January I don't wanna be dead I think the permanence scares me And they say that I'm young "This is just the beginning" Tell me why in the hell Do I still feel so empty It's dark at 3 now I'll blame it on the weather I don't know what to say But I swear I'm getting better Oh I swear I'm getting better Been a while since I've seen the daylight Walking home through the same dark every night Feels like it's lasting forever But I swear I'm getting better