I just
I just need to get some things off my chest
Yeah
My life is insane
Too many ways I tried numbing the pain
Too many ways I tried cutting my veins
Too many secrets that's hard to contain
I was a mess the moment I breathed
Hard to find happiness hard to be free
Dying seems better cause I can't find peace
The more that I care the quicker they leave
What can I do
It's hard to survive
Give 'em my all while I'm broken inside
Hiding my feelings so they can be fine
Don't care about me so I'm not surprised
Feel I'm a victim of being abandoned
I learned on my own I had to take action
Expressing my feelings get taken for granted
Say that they hear me but I know they cappin
Hard to find purposes all of this nervousness
Lungs is collapsing heart failure permanent
Leave me to die my life isn't worth all this
Leave me to die my life isn't worth all this
Know that you'll tell me there's reasons for living
For 25 years my living was different
I was put here for giving and giving
Not to receive just giving and giving
Tired of hurtin my heart keeps on burnin
Only my got me and I know that for certain
And nobody cares I know that for certain
And no one was there I know that for certain
Please understand I gave it my all
I tried to break through no matter the walls
The more I go up the quicker I fall
More that I go up the quicker I fall
I tried
I tried
I tried
I tried
I swear I tried
I tried
Look
Nobody listens
Expressing my feelings but nobody listens
I tell em I'm hurtin but nobody listens
I tell em I'm done they keep on living
I get it I get it
I promise I get it
They never loved you not from the beginning
Yeah they were pretending to love you I get it
Fuck all they feelings cause they hurt my feelings
I'm trying to push to find a new way
It's hard to move on and let go of the pain
I thought I found happiness it was too late
I learned it ain't for me cause it never stays
Fuck bout my life
I tried to die twice
Taking the pills and one by the knife
Pills to the head and one by the knife
Pills to the chest and one by knife
You hear what I'm saying?
Bout taking my life?
Killing myself?
I know it ain't right
The pain doesn't stop
It's killing my life
The pain never stops
It's killing my life
But I'm gonna try
To do what it is right
To care bout my life
Cause you never tried
I'm gonna make sure I try to survive
I'll never lose my life to suicide
This isn't pride
I just wanna try
Fuck everybody I just wanna try
I'll never hide no I'll never hide
Do what I got to with god on my side
God do you hear me can you hear my cries
God do you hear me can you hear my cries
I promise I tried and I'll keep on trying
Promise I tried and I'll keep on trying
I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying
I swear I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying