I've contemplated if I'm dedicated Where I'm headed Would it matter if I'm alive or dead I've wasted My potential with the wrong people I never waited Jumping in head first To test the water, they said "Homie you got this So what if people never get it?" It matters to me because That's why I penned it Pour my heart and my soul Upon the paper, I bled Bits and pieces of me Are forever stuck inside your head If you listened, I mean If you really listened To the words in my songs I think they paint a picture It's not always sunny In my mind, It's not Philly But if you feel me You begin to see the real me The guy behind the words The man who always sees the worst The dude that's always feeling cursed Always shaken never stirred Always seen as real disturbed This has gotten so absurd I guess it must have not occurred To some that I stay undeterred Can't phase me Nothing really gets to me Except the things inside my head Just mentally I'm not fine, but you Wouldn't know by looking at me I got a great big smile So I guess visually I'm just a goofball I laugh it up and trudge on But in my heart of hearts I know that something's going on Something is wrong And I really don't know what I mean, it sucks But I just have got to suck it up I might be stuck But that's not gonna stop me I look around And see no rapper that tops me So I decided that I'd come at them at top speed You can try to block me But you can never rock me You're not a challenge Even when you're at your best You're not on my level So go ahead and take my test But if you fail Then I do to you like all the rest Put you in a pile And I'll put you all to rest Look, I'm not trying To sound arrogant I just know That I am better than The vast majority in Sweden That is evident If you just listen to my tracks There's your evidence But it's screwing with my mind When I am seeing that All my hard work's being ignored You ain't feeling that? You ever felt that way When what you're working for Isn't working out You're being shaken to your core? But joke's on you It simply makes me work more I will stand in front of my mic Until my throat is sore I will write rhymes 'Till I can't write no more And I will plan a tour That's longer than two of yours But honestly I don't care about the fame Money's not my goal If it was I'd be insane I just wanna be able To do this everyday Without worrying about rent Or how I'm gonna pay it It's been a pain It's not easy being indie But I just can't give up It isn't in me Even my friends have doubts They can't see The vision that I have But I really believe That hard work and sacrifice Eventually pays of And if it doesn't Then shit, I guess I'm lost Without a paddle in shit's creek It gets deep The future might be bleak And filled with mystique But I'm not gonna stop Until the day that I reach my peak I won't put down my map Until I find what I seek I will search until the day Where I'm too weak To physically move on So gimme your critique You will see the day When what I create is everywhere And before you start complaining That life ain't fair Just remember I've been in this game for ten years I don't got no more time To waste on my inner fears