I can't seem to go a day Without my sense of self worth Being crushed by the people around me I'm the only one to blame For my Sadistic choice of company A whole life spent inside my mind Always smiled and said I'm fine I'm becoming somewhat resilient To these so called friends opinions I don't know how I'm supposed to relate to anyone When I can't make sense of my head I can't expect anyone to understand it Not a single thought just passes by Everyone of them gets trapped inside my mind I thoughtsome things were forever When we sailed on this endeavour But the places I called home Were never set in stone I wish someone had of told me Because I loved you all like family Thought it would go either way When it was me in need you stay And If I had my time again I'd keep it all inside my head Because Honesty gets you nowhere In this backwards world Where fake smiles and puffed up rhetoric Have more value than anything authentic Trailing dark thoughts to their endth degree Doesn't leave much room to work on things like personality On my best days I'm amused but jaded I'm starting to find consciousness rather overrated