Another sleepless night - it's 4 AM I'm spiraling into this dark place that I am always in Can't find no sense and no confidence in anything I'm dreading my existence - I see myself in the distance I see the hollow shell I used to call my home in reminiscence A bare bag of bones just floating round with no resistance Caught in the system no sense of purpose, just pure persistence Might need some help, some assistance, to make a fucking difference But I'll make a fucking difference I finally realized - I have to straddle my own destiny It wouldn't all just come to me - have faith in my ability No more making up excuses - leave me while I grind Moving past the smoke and mirrors, that I used to hide behind It took me long enough - to finally see the skies clear again To see the dark clouds, move on - but fuck I truly needed them 20/20 vision always crystal clear in hindsight Fuck me what a trip it's been, so buckle up and hold tight Dead - All the things in my head Turning to liquid again I was calling, calling Calling your name 20 years down the drain Now I'm back in the game I was falling, falling, falling again I used to hide the fact, that I was really not OK All the endless thoughts of suicide would haunt me through the day I couldn't say these thoughts out loud, I couldn't speak to anyone I wanted to be seen as strong - so I fucking swallowed them Confronting my worst fears, when I get up on song The blood and sweat and tears - every battle that I've won Against my inner demons, against my own self-doubt Against the voices in my head, that I could live without Before I wind up Dead - All the things in my head Turning to liquid again I was calling, calling Calling your name 20 years down the drain Now I'm back in the game I was falling, falling, falling again All these roads Lead straight to hell I hide away In my own cell That I have built Around myself So, for tonight I'm breaking free