Fallin' apart (fallin' apart) You might've thought I was playing a part in the art I've created But most of the words reflect what's happened Or what is waiting to start (start) happenin' I keep on damagin' myself, tryna fill the void (not in service) With all this water 'round my neck, I'm 'bout to drip until I drown All these drugs up in my nose, I taste the drip, that shit's so sour All these cars that I bought either don't start or they got impounded Pursue the American dream, the nightmare's what I doubted Catch a flight to London or I'll catch a flight to Lyon Show my face in public, show another one at home See my name on the marquee, letters falling down Littering a cold dark street somewhere downtown (not in service) Soon as I reached cloud nine, it started stormin' Heavy thunderstorms in every city that I'm tourin' Life ain't like a rap video, that's just a warnin' Hopin' to see the sun when I wake up in the mornin' (not in service) All this misery, misery, misery, fuck Look at my history No mystery where I might end up, just shut up (just shut up) Don't wanna hear it, it's my decision (my decision) May be my last words so just please listen (not in service) So long, it's been torture bein' here So gone, getting high been how I cope with fear Same song and I'm sick of singin' it, let me Move on, it's for my benefit (not in service) But come one, come all to my downfall (downfall) Bear witness to everything that I can't solve (I can't solve) My therapist made me promise before I end it all That her phone would be the one I choose to call, crying, asking (not in service) "Is it really worth it?" "What's beneath the surface or behind the curtain?" Really don't think I wanna take this any further Made one last attempt to figure out my purpose I called her phone, it said (not in service) When life gets hard (gets hard) Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on) Even if the finish line is far or you have to push the car (push the car) Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on, not in service) When life gets hard (gets hard) Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on) Even if the finish line is far or you have to push the car (push the car) Keep on marchin' on (keep on marchin' on)