With everything said I'm always ignored Making no progress has left me alone Became absolute, couldn't ask for more Hoped for starvation, cuz it's deserved Had compassion, felt sorrow, then pushed good people away I seem to just use Leaving them drained and me understood Hoping to change but I'm still confused Hoping to change but I've been abused Talking my pain does not get me threw All that I paint is black with some blue Always the wrong whenever I choose Trying to do right But my heart will refuse Trying to do right But my heart will refuse