Look at me I fade to grey I almost seem to decay We both seem to astray After time I feel so strange Why the fuck am I deranged Someone help me to escape I am drowning in mistakes I'm afraid and you're away I really need them cigarettes My tangled head is full of stress I never thought I had regrets Still think about the time we had I accept it, it's the past Wonder why the time moves fast Will you miss me when I passed I wanna be your first and last Remember when we were together I used to want to live forever Thought my life would turn out better That's why I'm writing you this letter Every night I cry a river I do not like this kind of weather Now I'm anxious, but whatever Never tried to set you under pressure I wanna leave my hometown But then she wouldn't be around I tried to make my parents proud But then they fucking kicked me out Now my head is in the clouds Blood keeps running down my mouth Don't know what to think about I don't know what to think about