I'm tryna outrun my mind Reminding myself of everything I'd leave behind But the bottle keeps sellin' me lies And I'd buy anythiing to get that high I hope God takes mercy on my soul "Cause I don't wanna let go I'm puttin' on fake smiles for everyone but me 'Cause I just can't stand to see My momma cryin' She can see me dyin' And I, keep tryna talk to Jesus And ask Him to take my demons And one day I'll be okay So I pray I'm tryna believe in love It's just gettin' hard to see Through all this blood And when it's not enough It's kill and be killed by the thoughts That lost your trust I'm puttin' on fake smiles for everyone but me 'Cause I just can't stand to see My momma cryin' She can see me dyin' And I, keep tryna talk to Jesus And ask Him to take my demons And one day I'll be okay So I pray And wished I'd knew the answer why I feel so dead inside And I'm just gettin' tired Of puttin' on fake smiles for everyone but me 'Cause I just can't stand to see My momma cryin' She can see me dyin' And I, keep tryna talk to Jesus And ask Him to take my demons And one day I'll be okay So I pray