I fade into the background in my own life
I don't feel sad I guess, at least, I know I don't cry
I can read intentions, and I find it hard to show mine
Maybe superhuman, but not super when I'm so blind
Always so ahead of me, and I can't even read the room
Talking in a melody, when I can't even speak in tune
All I know is jealousy, and I just want to see the truth
'Cause no one ever taught me all the social rules and secret cues
Even when we're special, there's a part that's always missing
Wish that I could listen, knowing that my life is still unwritten
But I'm searching for a purpose, and my reason for existence
I know world is full of lies, will address it for its wisdom
I'm not perfect, but I know that, I should never lose control
We're all just slaves to our emotions
And all the struggles that we hold
And I've been silencing my words, I don't want others getting hurt
But I keep feeling like I'm spilling out the cookie cutter mold
Another member of the Mob, but also always sticking out
I keep the fire on the hob because I'll never simmer down
I always felt like I was lost, was all the others figured out
But now I know I'm not alone, so I don't ever need to live in doubt
Take a breath and it's alright
We can fight in the darkest times
Be yourself and it's alright
And your life is what you decide
The light we hide can never fade, given time we'll find a way
I don't know if this is all I'm worth, but I will be OK
Through the night I count the days, rather die than lie awake
I don't know if I'll be happier, but I will be OK
One day I'll open up, but for now I keep it internal
All up in my mind like they got me running in circles
Always stay inside in my shell like I was a turtle
Just afraid of what's ahead, I'll be fine when I make the hurdles
What a socialize with others, I need a better rehearsal
What's even a point when I struggle of being verbal
The worst that it can heard of it more I keep in my journal
I don't need another ears to hear my heart turning purple
Wish this was forever, I wish we could be immortal
Talking with using different words like I walk through a cord
So it's an eye I'm treating, I'm staying true to my morals
And never can count the days that I wish I could just be normal
Look, I'm sorry that I'm different than how you want me to be
Always at my throat, they still expect me to breathe
Had a different low that you wouldn't fucking believe
But I never care what you think, look, I'm better when doing me
Take a breath and it's alright
We can fight in the darkest times
And I know what this is like
No matter if it's difficult, you always had to try
Be yourself and it's alright
And your life is what you decide
And we don't ever need to hide
Keep on learning to be happy with the person that's inside
A lie we hide can never fade, given time we'll find a way
I don't know if this is all I'm worth, but I will be OK
Through the night I count the days, rather die than lie awake
I don't know if I'll be happier, but I will be OK
Woah
I will be OK