I was dying in my dream last night For the first time this year, I felt fine Felt the blade and I watched the blood Didn't even put up a fight Know it's something they want me to hide But the truth will come out once I die Wanna scream, but I can't open my mouth I think I'm too sad to cry So I poison myself again You're the toxin running through my veins And I don't think you understand It's like I poured all my love down the drain So I poison myself again You're the toxin running through my veins And I still reach out for your hand While you slowly push me away If anyone could've saved me It would've been you I forgive you for all the pain You put me through And I'm praying to God, please take me soon Don't make me suffer more But if anyone could've saved me It would've been you So I poison myself again You're the toxin running through my veins And I don't think you understand It's like I poured all my love down the drain So I poison myself again You're the toxin running through my veins And I still reach out for your hand While I'm dying over and over again