Feeling all kinds of sorry
For myself and those around me
Every time they go to fix it
Something else is breaking
The longer that you stare the uglier it gets
So I stay cynical and safe inside my head
And I'll keep armed to the closed mouth grin
To keep them out and keep it in
Finds a way under my skin
To settle in like oxygen
Takes over my nerve supply
And paralyze the words that I
Get sent into flight or fight
And panic mode and I don't know why
I don't want to be this way
I don't want to be at all some days
And I don't want to be alone
I just can't explain myself to anyone
I feel almost everything
I'm in love with the world
And it don't love me
My hearts on fire
And everything between
I'm in love with the world
And it's killing me
When I die, I would like to be
Reincarnated in a symphony
Cos I don't want to feel anything
I don't want a body I can't stand to breathe
And I can't leave without it following
So I keep my guard up and armed to the teeth
I don't know where I'm supposed to go
But I gotta get my shit together
And leave right now